This Sunday doesnt feels like Sunday.
While probably Monday i am gonna be streched.

Woke up thinking about JAson.
Could he be angry at my msges or reading my blog last night.

I think I kinda knew what I was bothering about last night.
One of another issues.

I was thinking why cant we ever really have time of our own.
Ever since his tekong days,I have been enduring and waiting for the day he finally pass out.

The first time we met after his pass out proved to be quite a disappointing ending.

The second time we met(which was yesterday) was like...totally...-_-.
Other than the fact that I was tired.

As much as I miss those lil gals,but I was at all pleased to meet them now.
Though we went to visit them for a good cause,an unavoidable cause--his grandma's 70th bday..but I was unpleased with all the timing that all these take place.

Maybe I am craving,am waiting,am thinking that I deserve,something really romantic after all the time that I had waited.

Maybe I felt that it was unfair that all the good times that are supposed to be mine was transferred to your family.(while I felt bad towards mine,but they are not here now.Not for at least another 2 weeks.)

Maybe I really better preferred those nights that you call me everyday,till it got shorter and shorter and meaningless and meaningless.
Maybe I do miss those days you called to tell me that you miss me and we dropped the tears together till it become more of you telling me your army days and guys.
Maybe I really miss those days that you sing songs randomly and I asked you to "shut up",till it now become army songs that you sing that you really need to shut them up.

Of coz..of course..of all causes,it may not just be you.
I believe that there are parts of me that you cant find me too.

Where are "we" when I need us?

I still wish you would call to tell me that you love me.
I know you do..but sometimes...when things got bleak...I choose to ignore it altogether too and then think of the stuffs i thought on my previous post.

Suddenly feel like listening to that Fan Yi Cheng "I Believe" from that Korean movie--My sassy gal.